26 on 28.

It's been so long

That I haven't seen your face

I'm tryna be strong

But the strength I have is washing away.

First thing on my mind when I tried writing again today because it has been almost a month since I last wrote here!!!!! I'm so inconsistent and I actually contemplate a lot when I don't have much stuffs to do. I think I'm more productive when I have an actual daily routine, like I strive on repetitive schedule? is it an ADHD traits? (self diagnosed btw)

Anyways, I turned 26 years old on 28 of March. Twenty six sounds serious. But I don't know if I'm taking life seriously (maybe I am). I used to, I'm capable of being responsible of my own life but when I'm at home I feel like I'm not 26, I'm 6 instead. Twenty six years old used to be so distant, at one point in life I questioned myself will I ever reached 26? Yet here I am. However, when I was younger I envisioned myself being stable at this age. I am in fact not stable (yet). hahaha. I'm getting there though. 

Time and time again life has always never failed to humble me and my plannings. Yep one can only planned. In the meantime, be kind to yourself. Well, I know it's repetitive of me to say that, but what more can I do? Trust is a mindset and that's all I can do right now. Look around, look at your childhood pictures, home and hobbies. There's so much potential you carry. There's so much more of you than all those high hopes that will eventually drains you. It's okay if you are taking a little bit more time, this is life, as long as you're moving forward then there's nothing wrong with it. 

Slow down and rediscover yourself. Yep, that's going to be my 26.

do it for this kid inside you :>

p/s: smile looks good on you.