Living in an answered prayer

Assalamualaikum and Salam Ramadan day 22 ^-^

The month of Ramadan flew by so fast that we are already entering the last ten days! masyaAllah and alhamdulillah for this opportunity again. I absolutely love the vibes I get during Ramadan, everyone are extra loving and grateful, which is great. I hope people will never forget the softness that this month has bring upon us and continue to cherish it in the next month too, insyaAllah.

By the way, remember I told you I was waiting for an interview result to become a teacher? The results came out ten days ago. Alhamdulillah praised be to Allah, with His wills I passed the interview :') After all, He knew what's best for me so He put me to walk in this path, to be an educator that I hope would bring benefits to Islam as well as to myself. 

I have this one biggest secret that I think I can finally share it here hehe. I loved sharing, anything at all as long as others would benefit from it. At one point in life, yes I used to say I want to be an educator. After SPM, I applied for IPG and went to sit for UKCG test. But I failed that stage. I also went to an interview for Foundation in TESL after SPM and I did not succeed too. Came STPM, counsellors and Umi asked me to apply for education course. I said no because I do not want to go through the same rejection again. But truth to be told? I still applied for TESL at UPM and got an online interview. Again, it also went down the drain hahaha. I got accepted to study Human Sciences (English Language & Literature) in IIUM instead. Don't get me wrong, it's my dream university and course too but I just want to try for education one last time. So I got my answer, I thought teaching was not for me.

However, I could not lie to myself. During my second year in university, I joined a mentoring club that bonded with primary school pupils from three different schools. We did so many programs and activities with them. I enjoyed being a part of it very much. Even then, my secondary school friends still contacted me to ask me about English when they need help to do their assignment of MUET exam. Like I said before, I enjoyed teaching them so much and the ecstasy I get when they said it's easy to understand after I teach them :') I love the connection I get with each other so much. But, I'm still scared of rejection, so I thought maybe I belong to work behind the scene, I'm an introvert, being an editor would suit me since it involves little to no contact with people. 

And then I got accepted as a Junior Editor at a company that produce secondary school's teaching aid. I was assigned to edit and create additional content for several subjects. Every single time, I keep having this thought to myself, "I could teach this so easily to make the students understand" "I know tips and tricks for easier learning experience". Little did I know, being an introvert does not mean I should shut myself out from people. Being an introvert also means you are emphatic with a high emotional intelligence that allows you to read your surroundings before anybody else. And that is, in my opinion, a trait that educators should have to be able to understand students with different needs in a class to make sure you could deliver the best education for them. 

Hence, I believe that rejection that I have encountered before is a redirection I needed most. To make sure I know my worth and capabilities that I have so much to offer. More importantly, Allah sees you and Allah knows best. And I will forever be grateful for this eye opening opportunity.

بِسْمِ اللهِ مَاشَاءَ اللهُ

p/s: May Allah reward us with His utmost blessings for every sweat we drop throughout Ramadan in the pursuit of rizq.

Book Reflection: Longing for God's Closeness by Ayesha Syahira

Assalamualaikum and Salam Ramadan day 6 ^-^

Since it's the blessed month of Ramadan, I kinda want to write something more beneficial to us all so I decided to do a book review of a book that I recently finished reading. I actually started reading this book in November (if I'm not mistaken) but only get to finished the last chapter of the book a day before Ramadan. Thanks to my cousin Solehah who offered me her mysiswa coupon so I get three books worth RM100 for free and all she claimed back from me was just a cup of Chagee hehehehe <3

When I started reading this book I was at a state of finding peace. My work life during that time was heavy and lonely, I needed something that could sooth me, tender words from human that went through something similar I would say. This book helps me so much in terms of finding inner peace and comfort.

Through all the five chapters of this book, it does not feel like a chore at all, in fact, I needed to read it. Ayesha Syahira surely knows how to write while also still connects, do you get what I mean? The feeling when you read the book and finally you feel seen. We struggles the same, and trying all the same to be better. It's like a best friend you needed the most. 

The main essence of the book is discussing Salah. Yes, it's one of the Pillar of Islam, you would think it's too heavy to discuss casually right? But no, the author's writing truly captured the beauty of connection with Allah through Salah without over thinking it. What I mean here is that, it's great that we think of Salah seriously but not to the point it started to overwhelmed us because we keep thinking we are not kind or good enough to start. Instead, we should start doing it slowly. Consistently. Because Allah always knows your intentions and see you trying. That's it. Keep trying every day. That's what I have been holding on ever since I started reading this book. I learn to slow my pace down and took my time properly. 

Sometimes, simplicity is all that we need. It's true, live life in moderation, in every essence of life. Because we are all human, we tend to break too, so it's okay as long you did not go far from His path. Remember to reset your intention, to review your life goals. And I like to remind this again and again, take it slow. In a world of efficiency, do not rush your Salah. That's your actual break time to collect your thoughts and go face the world again. As long as you have put your life intentions towards Allah, there's nothing that can stop you :)

p/s: to those who have worked hard, I'm so proud of you! Keep going ^-^

Life has a way to surprise you

Hellooo-oooo-oooo~ (echoes) readers, probably just one person hahahaha

I'm back in one piece, safe and sound.

As per my postings on my social medias recently, yes I went to South Korea!!!!!!!! A dream come true moment #2. I do planned to write a full story version of the travelling but it's not today okies. Today I want to share how did I got there in the first place (by plane duhhh, but like the thoughts behind it) ok let's get to it.

Initially, I was supposed to go to Singapore mid January, however the trip has to be cancelled due to unforeseen circumstances. My friend had an emergency so we have to cancelled it for now. Thankfully no bookings were made yet, so close though! But I did went to get my first ever passport early January to prepare for the trip. I absolutely did not have any other trip in mind after the trip to Singapore was cancelled. 

Surprisingly, my primary school friend Wirtz-iz Danial (:p) decided to ask me to join his trip to South Korea two weeks before the trip happened. Together with his sister and his degree friend, off we gooooo! Yes, it was such a last minute decision but it all went so smoothly alhamdulillah. I'm still in awe that I get to have my first trip abroad. The preparation of the trip? Quite a rush but I actually enjoyed every moment of anticipation and the nervousness for the trip to happen. I mean, I don't want another cancelled trip xD But if He wills, He wills.

Which leads to why I started to write here again, my grateful journey. I don't know how to properly worded it but I feel so amused with His timings. It fell into places, one by one, I'm not even planning or thinking about it at the first place...but if that's what meant for me? will find me. MasyaAllah.

And I'm so in need of the comfort of fate because I'm still waiting for my interview results after months of interviewing. So afraid of how the results would turns out, yes. But like I said, what's meant for me will find me, and just like that I feel at ease again. 

Because either way, I still win. I will.

p/s: Ramadan Mubarak to all :) let this blessed month be the reason you want to keep going and finding meaning to be a better version of yourself. Above all else, take it slow. ok? :))

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