A year of gratefulness and mindfulness.

It's the year 2026. Sounds so...serious.

Have I been the same through all these years? Physically, maybe. Not mentally, no. 

Mentally I'm different now. I feel the difference especially the way I perceive things and carry myself. Thanks to the experience living six hours, hundred of kilometers away from home, I'm not afraid to accept things that comes my way. Sometimes, it is what it is even though you have to wipe your own tears while doing so. It's just a part of being strong, or so I would call, a part of being grateful.

So here I am this year, to count my blessings of the previous years to reflect the goodness behind every chapters I have gone through. One by one, I'll let myself revisits those memories be it happy or sad. To remind myself (or even all of you who are reading this) that life is not that serious, take it easy because at the end of the day I will manage. You will manage, too. Eventually. So allow yourself to weep, be happy, confused or even mad, just don't let it consume your thought and be mindful with what you are doing. Always.

I graduated in October 2024 and got my first job in July 2025. 9 months. So long, I know. I have gone through countless realization since. So, so, so many what if's during that time. 

here's 24 y/o me not knowing what life will unfold hahaha

Anyways, during that time I will go to my grandma's house during the day until my aunt's back from her workplace at around eight at night. Countless of job hunting, sometimes I attend free online courses from the government. Countless of going back and forth to KL too to attend interviews. Behind my resilience, there's my whole family's supporting without pressuring me, which I am ever so grateful. It's not always rainbows of course. At one point I lose hope too, I was tired and started to question my self worth. But that's when I started to learn how to better connect with my (our) Creator. Slowly I began to accept the 'He is the best planner' more than just a phrase. And because of that, I could never resent this phase of my life because it has surely shaped me to be a better individual today.

p/s: there's always things to be grateful of. Even in the simplest moments. :)